Lightning trapped in a bottle.

My inspiration resides in a well. This well has no floor and within it resides an opulent liquid, dense with creative energy and overflowing with ideas. I cannot reach this well, it is always out of my reach; I cannot access my inspiration from atop this bottomless well.

I reach for sustenance only to stretch forth without triumph. Why can’t I drink from this well?

I fall. 

Swimming.

I float, completely immersed in creative thought, and in this liquid, my ideas flow easily and manifest on the page. Why can’t I reach my ideas from atop this well?

I yearn for the day I can reach for that opulent liquid whenever I desire, with this liquid, I will bring to life words that generate inspiration in masses.

Influence.

 

 

The puppet master.

The puppet dances at each whim of its master; unknowingly dominated. Wide-eyed the puppet gazes out into the world ignorant. He feels a feeling of safety, a feeling of ultimate fictitiousness…the strings make him feel like he belongs; wanted. None of it is real, his life is a scene in the master plan.

The puppet is free.

Scared, confused and disorientated the puppet steps into an unknown world. Walking without guidance, panic-stricken and unsure, the puppet makes his first step…another, and then another. He is walking without support, albeit shakily.

Time goes on and soon he is running. Sometimes he falls over, sometimes he stays down for long, but he pulls himself up. He pulls himself up by his strings, he is his own master.


When your supports are kicked out beneath you it’s an uncertain experience. Your entire life tilts into the unknown and you are afraid. You can do it, push on, pick yourself up and keep walking. You are no longer a puppet, you have value and you are the master of your world. You are free to create, produce and explore.

 

 

Endurance of a king for his peoples.

A world exists inside of me. In this realm exists euphoria, melancholy and enigmatic sensation. Enigmatic beings live here too, producers of the greatest creations and the most blissful sensations. However, these beings possess antithetical energy, an energy of which brings such ecstasy rapidly to baseline.

A world exists inside of me, this inner manifests the outer. Erratic, sporadic and impulsive, inconsistently consistent and resistant to my resistance. Controlling, overwhelming and paradoxically positive. Strange?

Although I am possessed by pure unrelenting turbulence I embrace it. This energy lights my fire and inspires with feelings of pure ecstasy to push onwards. This energy creates my greatest moments and allows me to become a source of inspiration for others. This is my calling.

Turbulent emotions are tough, but life is tougher. I will endure so that I can inspire others to create a better life.

I will endure.

 

 

 

 

 

I feel like a book without a title.

For some time now I’ve been feeling lost.

Lost like an asteroid rocketing through space.

Inertia but no direction.

Why do I feel this way? Let me explain…

Through my meditation practice, I have been able to take a step back from thoughts concerning my ego, albeit not all but many thoughts; That is to say thoughts referencing (I, me, my, and my name etc). I have also become exponentially more open to opposing views and information contrary to what I think, and I believe this is a result of identifying less with ideas, and whilst this sounds liberating and relaxing there is another side that I did not anticipate. Sounds confusing? It is a little, let me walk you through it. When a Human identifies with an idea, belief or perspective it becomes apart of their identity (e.g. ego) and this identification becomes a driving force for their actions and perceptions. When someone or something (e.g. contradictory information) challenges this idea, belief or perspective, the person raises their defences and rejects the idea (see: confirmation bias, cognitive dissonance). These negative responses prevent information from being absorbed and as a result, their views or beliefs remain unchanged.

You may be thinking “you’re more open to ideas…so what?” and if you are that’s a valid question. Well, through decreased identification with ideas and beliefs, that is to say, ideas are not becoming a part of my identity, they are orbiting me rather than entering my metaphorical atmosphere. This has resulted in me feeling like I do not hold convictions (apart from being a good person etc), and thus a felt loss of identity. This loss of conviction has made me feel like I do not have anything to strive towards and to dedicate my spare time to. Perhaps this could be called a partial ego death? Who knows.

Surprisingly I have large amounts of energy, motivation, will power and drive but no cause, belief, idea or purpose for which I can wholeheartedly apply these energies.

I am an asteroid rocketing through space…I wonder where I will end up next?

 

Exploring the Human Environment

Whilst travelling in India, I had the realisation that I was going to uproot my entire life and move to Wollongong. Why? Well, I was already a relatively disciplined and focused person, however, I felt like my environment, physical and social, were not aligned with what I wanted to achieve in my life. My mental health was suffering because of it and I knew I needed to make a change. So I changed everything. I decided that it would benefit me socially, financially and in my professional development efforts if I moved to Wollongong; so I did. This was one of the biggest leap-of-faith moments in my life, and it has worked out better than expected. My environment has now aligned with my preferred life, career and social trajectory. My train is on the tracks and it doesn’t plan on stopping. My life had dramatically changed for the better because I had changed my environment.
An environment conducive to productivity is crucial to the prosperity of ourselves, others, our nation and all nations. Your environment is a constant flow of subconscious information which influences your thoughts, emotions, and behaviours. We are intrinsically connected to our environment, and it is for this reason that you must align your environment with your values and goals. Your environment includes things such as your room, your house, where you choose to study, who you socialise with, and the media you choose to be influenced by.
The structure of your environment influences you with or without your knowledge, so will you choose to utilise the power that order creates to your advantage? How productive do you want to be? What kind of life do you desire? Is your environment ordered, or is it chaotic? Are the people you are exposed to also pursuing the life you desire? I’m here to answer all those questions and encourage you to arrange your environment in such a way that is conducive to the life that you want for yourself.

Your physical environment
You are a student at University, and to be somewhat academically successful, you must study. If you do not have a desk (or flat surface of moderate height) you are less likely to study. Why? Well, where else will you study, the floor? For a moment, ponder why this is. The floor is not a likely productive environment for studying, for reasons such as pain whilst sitting for extended periods of time (unless of course your body is familiar with such a position), furthermore, it is difficult to keep your head up if you are in fact laying on the ground with your laptop. Your physical position isn’t optimised for extended academic productivity. However, I am sure there are exceptions to this rule. Now picture yourself sitting at a desk…your computer is there, and your reading timetable, calendar and class schedule are fixed to the wall in front of you. Your books are stacked to the left and your stationery to the right, and at a glance, you recognise this collection of seemingly unconnected objects as an area where your study takes place. Contrast this with your floor…do you see your floor in the same way? If you do, perhaps you don’t own a desk? Structure your environment in a way that is conducive to the tasks you want to carry out, and what you wish to achieve.

Your mental environment
Does your mind ever feel cluttered when surrounded by mess? Obviously, there are exceptions to this rule, specific to both person and situation. However, as a general rule, cluttered space equals a cluttered mind. According to a study conducted by the Princeton neuroscience institute, you are more prone to distraction when surrounded by multiple visual stimuli. A cluttered environment is not conducive to the activities that you wish to engage in unless that activity is cleaning (ha-ha). If your environment is established in a manner that is conducive to your objectives, you are more likely to turn those tasks, such as studying at your desk, into a routine. By implementing routine, you are becoming more efficient as the mental load of decision making is not at play; you have increased your efficiency and in turn your effectiveness. And voila! You are on the path to becoming useful in the world.

First things first
The first thing that you do every day is important. So important in fact, that how you start your day sets the tone for it. If you wake up and make your bed, you will gain an immediate sense of accomplishment. In turn, this will reward your body with dopamine (the same chemical that is released when you drink coffee or have sex), and this effect is likely to snowball throughout the day (thanks, dopamine!).
You can get into good habits like this by leaving your moisturiser in plain sight so that you are more likely to use it daily. Maybe leave your diary next to your bed so that you are more inclined to write in it when you spot it. Charge your phone far from your reach, so that you are less likely to reach for it and become distracted, or position your lamp strategically so that you can easily switch it on/off when required. These are simple examples of ordering your room in such a way that is conducive to the tasks you wish to carry out. It is critical to structure your room so that the things you wish to achieve are linked to the order of your environment. Your environment is critical, don’t forget that. Listen to what your mother always said and “clean your damn room!”

The Social Environment
Jim Rohn, an entrepreneur, once said that “you are the average of the five people you spend the most time with”. This is wise, however, I prefer this version: “You are the average of the five people you are exposed to most frequently”. I like this version because you can be exposed to people through media, such as Youtube, podcasts, blogs or TV. Now imagine growing up in a household where discipline, routine and goals aren’t the status quo. You subconsciously adopt these values, thoughts, and behaviours of those around you; your mother, father, sister, brother, aunty and uncle.
Your family members do not have routine, discipline nor do they set goals. They don’t possess the mindset that they can achieve anything. You have unknowingly adopted their mindset, habits, and characteristics. Is this environment conducive to achieving great things? This may seem harsh but consider this.
Perhaps you want to be a writer, psychologist, bodybuilder, or even a successful businessperson. How can you expect to maintain routine, discipline and achieve goals if everybody around you has no routine, discipline and has no goals? Maybe they don’t encourage you, and maybe they even put you down (see: crab mentality). They cannot perceive a life different to their current circumstance. There are exceptions, but in my experience, this is the rule. Furthermore, I have personally experienced something analogous to this, and I have also personally experienced the powerful effects of an environmental shift. My environment became more aligned with my interests, hobbies, and values, and the improvement I experienced was exponential. Never in my life have I ever experienced such a surge of energy, discipline, focus, and hunger for success. The people that are included in your social environment matter more than you realise.

Media…who, and what are you choosing to influence you?
How much time do you spend watching Netflix or TV? What do you learn from this? Is this new-found knowledge edging you closer to your goals and dreams? When you are exposing yourself to media, you are programming yourself to think a certain way. For example: if you watch Fox News every day, you are more likely to be racist and bigoted (thanks, Bill O’Reilly!). Because you are constantly exposed to that narrative, an emotion is triggered and leading you to unknowingly adopt these views and feelings towards a subject. This is the same reason propaganda works.
Now imagine that you have the goal of wanting to be a successful person in some arena. You start listening to podcasts involving successful people within their specific disciplines to understand their mindset, their decision-making schema, in addition to their habits and routines. Every day, you are exposing yourself to the thoughts, feelings, and insights of people who have achieved so much in their life. Over time, you will begin to adopt their views, thoughts, feelings, habits, and routines- you are programming yourself for productivity. What media you choose to influence you matters, and it matters because you are programming your brain to think and act a certain way.
Your environment is all-encompassing, and it has a far-reaching impact. It influences your habits, routine, thoughts and emotions. This may be daunting; however, you are blessed with the power to change your environment. Modulate your environment in such a way that is likely to produce the results you desire. You are in control.

References
Kastner, S & McMains, S 2011, ‘Interactions of Top-Down and Bottom-Up Mechanisms in Human Visual Cortex’, JNeurosci, vol. 31, no. 2, pp. 587-697.

Forbidden.

You must not eat from the tree in the centre of the garden, or certainly, you will die. Will the serpent influence you? Will you succumb? You know this is surely wrong, but the urge is too strong.

You succumb to this wrong, the urge, it was too strong, and now you lie naked and exposed; conscious.

Dear Adam,

Some things are forbidden, you know this to be true. Why then must thou eat from the centre of the garden? Surely, you understood this truth. Now you lie covered, awaiting retribution.

You knew this to be wrong, the same as you also know seeking her to be wrong. Her purity, a magnetic pull to drink at the river’s edge.

Contain yourself, for you wish not to live untrue. Do not drink from this river as you will surely live untrue. This ripe fruit is forbidden. They say history repeats itself- do not follow through.

Kind regards,

Adam.